So...there is no hope
for this ridiculous thing now. I'm just going to leave it as it is now and
someday I can look back at it...someday far far away from now. With that
said, I think I may make a new one...completely new. And the very last thing
that shall be said before this site dies, but surely not the least... I love
you.
November 7th - Time flies
8:33 PM
All right....I think
it's high time to update this thing. I have no clue where to start though. I
suppose I could start with a little bit of rambling......
School is going well so far.. I hope. Report cards come out
Wednesday so I'll know then.
Oh, if anyone has some ideas of stuff I could put on
here... please tell me because I have no idea. You think after a year and a
half of keeping this thing up I would've had at least one cool idea, but no.
Now I must say something very important... I hope you're
ready for this because it's very important.... Danielle is amazing!
Now to lesser important stuff. College. College. COLLEGE!
Is lame.... I haven't worked on any applications yet. All I have is
one essay and one recommendation letter.
Umm what else is new? Hmmmmm let's see. This past Saturday
I broke 1 million on Sky Shark finally. My previous record, which was also
the world record, was 948,130. On Saturday I got 1,041,130 after an
extremely stressful 35 minute game. My next goal is to play 1 hour on a
single quarter, not sure where that will put me point-wise though, 1.7 mil -
2 mil roughly. Something really funny happened when I was playing too!
Either my 3rd or 4th plane I lost at exactly 999,990 points.....can you
imagine how mad I would've been if it had been on my last plane.
Ok what other random things can I possibly talk about...
my dad bought two Amphicars. I'm going to add a page with pictures and stuff
sometime. I might make him a website just for that though, not sure yet.
Shout out to my Saturday night crew for being the coolest
group of friend's ever.
Ummm.... Van Halen rules.... haha (that's what I'm
listening to right now...)
Ok so I have a couple things planned for this thing.
Mostly I need to take down a ton of crap that is really old and just plain
lame. Then hopefully I can put up new stuff....
It is times like this one I am sitting here, doing
practically nothing, but having so many things to do that I don't know what
to do. And consequently I ramble like this and nothing gets done.
It is getting harder for me to find music that keeps me
interested. I'll find a new band, listen to them for a little while, then I
need something else new. I have listened to so much music now (because that
is all I do nonsto)p that I am starting to fear not being able to find new
music I like.
I don't know how I managed to break the A string on my
guitar considering it is the second thickest one. Can't play until tomorrow
when I get new strings, oh well.
I'm bored so I'm going to put this up now... and maybe add
to it later tonight!
September 6th - Pictures from 2000
5:48 PM
My friend Jenn (who
took the pictures) gave me some copies. The pictures are from Coronation Day
which I think was January '00 and I think the 2nd Annual Classics Tourney in
June '00. I may be wrong but I do know the pics are from 2000.
Clicky here!
September 5th - Flying Sea Creatures?
9:09 PM
I forgot to add this
awhile ago. This is Sky Shark. I got it the night before the day I left for DC,
so I didn't get to play it until I got back. But what a nice thing to come
back to! I'm going for the world record on this game now. I feel it's
definitely feasible. Best way to get great at a game is to own it. Play it
whenever you want, no distractions.
September 2nd - About time, right?
6:30 PM
I'm too lazy to write
anything right now! So here is a
slideshow thing I put together from my trip to Washington DC. Enjoy.
(sorry it's so big, there was just so much stuff I wasn't
able to leave out!)
August 8th - Ummmm.... yeah....
12:52 AM
So... summer. It was
good, got rough, and I guess it's getting better again now... I haven't
decided yet.
Video games have been better then ever
lately. Playing lots of WoW nonstop at home. Putting a lot more time into
the classics at Funspot. I finally broke 300,000 on Sky Shark tonight. I
also got 3,172,930 on Grand Lizard. Crazy bells and lights and stuff were
all going off while I was playing, it was really neat. Practicing Lode
Runner. Haven't played Hot Rod much since the tournament. I'm still just
1,000 from the world record.
Oh yea...I'm buying Jason and Anna's Sky Shark machine for
$175. I'll probably have some pictures of it up in a few days.
Lack of updates.... I guess I've been busy or something.
I'm always doing something or something else.
Guitar has been going well...I haven't played anything
except the same riff over and over for a couple months now. But it's fun and
something to do.
Getting a lot better at hacky sack... I want to get a
video me doing all the tricks I know, in a row. We'll see...
That reminds me. I have to express my love for Saturdays
and my gamer friends. Whether or not I'm working, I'm always at Funspot on
Saturday. Saturday night all my friends come up. Jenn from in town, Jason,
Anna, Shawn, Christian and David from Maine, Mike from... Mass. someplace,
I'm not sure where Greg or Donald are from and I think Dave is from Milford.
But anyways, they play games from sometime shortly after noon till close.
Then we go to Dunkin Donuts until 1 in the morning. Then Levitt Park until 3
AM to play hacky sack and just hang out. It's so much fun.
We finally named our cat. Her name is Peach, as in
Princess Peach from Mario.
I don't know what Mr. Mathis is up to. I e-mailed him a
few times but no response. I don't know.
I got my wisdom teeth taken out. It was.. an interesting
experience. They stuck a needle in my arm and put a brace thing on it so it
didn't move. 5 seconds later I start laughing... I don't know why, nothing
was funny, I was just laughing and couldn't control it. The next thing I
know, I'm in a different room. I'm laying there half asleep half awake. I
asked my mom when they were going to start and she said they already
finished. Apparently after they finished, they had helped me walk to this
room to rest. I had no memory of any of it. I have no memory of walking out
of the place, no memory of the ride home and no memory of getting out of the
car, but somehow I ended up on my couch. I turned on my iPod and rested for
a couple hours. Mom fed me some Italian ice. I watched the Matrix. Then life
just continued as normal except with some pain in my mouth. Don't worry
about getting your wisdom teeth pulled.... it was fun and it hardly hurts at
all.
I've been visiting a lot of colleges lately. I'm almost
certain computer science is what I want to go for.
I need to put up pictures of my cat. She is so addorable.
I'll save it for tomorrow.
Yea I need sleep.... I'll update again soon...I promise!
July 4th - LiFe = GooD
2:33 AM
Everything has been
really great lately! Especially Renee <3 Lots n lots of things have been
goin on and stuff like that.
Thursday I went to a 3
Doors Down concert. Staind, Breaking Benjamin and No Address opened for
them. It was extremely awesome and extremely loud. Breaking Benjamin had the
best music in my opinion but 3 Doors Down put on the best show. They had
lots of fire shooting up everywhere, lots of loud explosions, fog, pretty
lights, cool sparkly things that looked like raining fire and even fireworks
(yes, inside a building). Live music is truly amazing.
Saturday I worked in the morning then went to Funspot that
night. Went to JT's for dinner with everyone. Played games the rest of the
night. Sunday I hung out with Renee and then worked until 12. Went to
the Weirs with the Saturday night crew to watch the fireworks. Turned out to
be the best fireworks show I have ever seen. The finale was literally 5
minutes of nonstop, rapid fire sonic booms and bright lights. Went to the
Half Moon arcade after the fireworks for a while.
Let's see...what else. Undoing Ruin is excellent. Love the
album artwork and the lyrics to the songs.
I have to work 7 days in a row. Blah. On a brighter note
though, Funspot now has an XBox hooked up in the golf center on a 12 foot
screen. Makes for great Halo 2 fun.
I'm tired because it's 2:30 AM and I'm hungry because I
haven't eaten in 7 and a half hours so...goodnight.
June 26th - Undoing Ruin
10:56 PM
Two days until the
release of Darkest Hour's Undoing Ruin. This is going to be the greatest
album of the year, maybe even longer, if you're into any kind of heavy
music.
You can check out the trailer for the album,
as well as the video for Convalescence
here! The trailer
is extremely cool. The video would be a ton better if it were in a bigger
resolution.
Here are what some reviewers have said about the album:
Alternative Press: “Considering
all of the hyperbolic marketing surrounding
Darkest Hour’s third Victory full-length, (e.g.,
“heavier than Slayer,” “the best album since
Slaughter Of The Soul”), most of us probably
sort of wanted to hate Undoing Ruin. Well, good
luck: Not only are these quotes true; they also
don’t even begin to do the album justice.
Tenfold better than 2003’s Hidden Hands Of A
Sadist Nation, Undoing Ruin takes the band’s
black-metal/hardcore hybrid to stratospheric
levels, combining melodic guitar gallops,
punishing double-bass and sweep-picked shredding
(check out the end section of “Sound The
Surrender”) in a way that isn’t only
unbelievably heavy, it’s also unbelievably
catchy. Oh, and regarding Devin Townsend’s
production: Slaughter Of The Soul sampled
Pantera’s bass drum—we’re betting bands are
going to be sampling Undoing Ruin a few years
down the road. Sometimes, we love being wrong. 5
out of 5!!!
Big Cheese:
Stunning technical carnage from Washington DC: 5
out of 5 !! Undoing Ruin’ is a vital for Victory
Records. Up against stunning new releases from
Trivium, The Agony Scene and Avenged Sevenfold,
the label need Washington DC boys Darkest Hour
to deliver the goods. And boy, do they do that!
‘Undoing Ruin’ is a colossal album that really
ups the ante on every level. While written to
cause maximum technical metal carnage, ‘Undoing
Ruin’ doles out tracks like ‘This Will Outlive
Us’ sounding like pure Slayer. Listening to
‘Undoing Ruin’ it’s no big surprise to find
Canadian crackpot Devin Townsend involved
somewhere in the process of this record.
Handling production duties, all this living
legend has done is add his magical touch to an
already spellbinding piece of work. Essential!
Total Guitar UK: Recalling the
halcyon days of And Justice . . . Metallica and
Season’s . . . Slayer, this metalcore quintet
from Washington, DC offer up the kind of pure
speed metal precision you expect from a band
that has been sonically raping the US
underground scene for 10 years!
June 25th - Bee Bee Que
10:18 PM
Had a mega awesome
family BBQ today. Relatives from all over NH came as well as some from
Alabama and Washington. A few pictures can be found
here. It was really great to see some of my relatives that live so far
away and all of their new little babies.
June 24th - Kris Norris
11:55 PM
As you're reading
this, you're face is probably melting off due to the mega awesome solo
that's playing by Kris Norris. Kris is one of the guitarists from Darkest
Hour and also my favorite guitarist. I just love his style and his music. If
you happen to be curious here's his
website. Here's a quick link to a
VERY awesome trailer
he made for his instructional DVD.
Now go buy some
DH CD's and support an awesome band.
June 23rd - Excellent Start to Summer
10:44 PM
Mmmmm freeze pops...
So anyways, summer has been rockin it hardcore. Been hanging
out with Renee a lot which is awesome. At the same time though I have had a
ton of time to play games. Halo 2 with Estes every night rocks. Been playin
some WoW too. Tons of guitar shredage has been shaking the house.
Ordered two more of Darkest Hour's older CD's. I'll be
buying their new one the day it's out. I love good music....
Barbeque on Saturday! My dad's side of the family will be
there. Relatives coming from Washington and Alabama...as well as Laconia of
course. It'll be the first really big party we've had at our house.
We still don't have a name for the cat. Any ideas would be
great. It's a she by the way...
I need something new and really awesome to spice things up
here...
June 18th - New Stufff
10:30 PM
Well I have finally
got a chance to update! Lots of stuff going on lately.
School is pretty much done.
Got a mega huge amp for my birthday. Marshall MG50DFX.
Very very awesome.
We still haven't named our cat...after a whole week. We're
still calling her kitty.
I'll spend some time tomorrow maybe consolidating all this
news into the archive because this page is way to big.
Jeez every time I think of something to say here... I
forget it. OH WELLZ.
June 11th - Cat
11:20 AM
We go a new cat today.
She doesn't have a name yet. She's so friendly, wasn't scared at all. She
sits on your lap and cuddles and it's really awesome.
On a side note I found the new DH album, Undoing Ruin,
online. The album isn't released until June 28th but I have all the mp3's so
ha! But seriously, it's a great album.
Well anyways I'm sure I'll update more later.
June 11th - My Birthday
12:05 AM
It's my birthday!
June 5th - Awesome Stuff I Forgot to Say
11:31 PM
OK. First of all.
Congrats to Anna Cram for winning the Ladies Tournament. Completely forgot
to mention that earlier.
And another thing. Saturday
night at the Saturday night crew's cabin, Jason and I played a game of Ant
Pong. We were flicking around a live ant on the floor. Just back and forth
at first. Then we had a cup and the first to get it in the cup had the world
record. So I have a world record on Ant Pong also. That poor ant almost
broke in half though...I felt bad for him.
Also on Saturday, Shawn and I played hacky sack for a
while, not sure exactly how long. It was great though because we both
usually have a hard time finding people who can keep up with us. It was
perfect. He showed me a few tricks that I learnt right off the bat.
Also, on the way back to Funspot from Patrick's, Dave
rolled down his window, stuck his head out and was waving his tongue around
like a dog. Then he was barking at people as we drove by. We had slowed to a
crawl in the Weirs because of traffic and instead of barking he was just
growling and people would look at him funny. We were behind Donald, and we
were going to pass him and have Dave bark at him while passing him. But
there were too many cars coming the other way to pass him.
I'm sure I'll remember more interesting occurrences over
time and when I do I'll put em right here!
June 5th - Tournament Day 4
9:11 PM
What a killer day.
Absolutely unbelievable. Where to start...
I woke up
and dreaded going to work. It wasn't so bad though because I got to wear
jeans and just hang out all day. It was the most laid back day of work ever.
The only difference between what I do there when I'm not working and when I
was working today, was I played less games today. Yea, I played some while I
was working...shhhh. All day I was just hanging out and cheering for my
friends to win.
Pinball was a hot item today. Two new guys showed up this
morning. They seemed kind of wacko and stuff, but one of them absolutely
creamed TWO of the three the pinball scores. Later in the day, Dan Howard came back
and creamed one of the other guy's scores. Then Mike Sao Pedro comes over
and DOUBLES Dan's score. Mike either has the most amazing skills ever, or
had mad luck. He was by far the most watched and cheered on player. He was
doing excellent at first in the tournament seemed a win was inevitable, but
fell short after awhile. Today though his comeback was incredible.
Sadly, no one met any of Billy Mitchell's challenges.
Donald Hayes was on a roll for his perfect Pacman game, but died about
3/4ths into it. He gave up because he didn't have enough time to give it
another shot. Steve Wiebe just didn't have it going for him today I guess.
Looked like his game ended in the 600 thousands on Donkey Kong. He looked
pretty sad the rest of the day...considering he didn't make $10,000 bucks I
would've been sad too.
The award ceremony was held down in the restaurant. So
many awards were given out, about 30 maybe. Awards were given to Jason Cram
for the color games, Dave Nelson for the monochrome games, and Dan Howard for the pinball games. Mike Sao Pedro got the award for player of
the year. Adam Wood won the Alien Hominid championship. A few bounties were
given out by Rob Mruczek. Funspot now has 4 new arcades. Indiana Jones and
Doubles Pong thanks to Mruczek. Radical Radial donated by the Saturday night
crew. We each donated $20 so it was fairly cheap for us to donate. And Gary
fixed up Lode Runner which was sitting out in the back shop for a year.
Well anyways...I added a few more pics. I made them all a
smaller size so they don't take as long to load.
And thus ends one of the most spectacular weekends I have
ever had. In my next life though please let me be born in the late 70's!
Thank you Dave, Jen, Shawn, Jason, Anna, Christian, David, and Mike for
being such awesome people.
I leave you with...important stuff:
And something REALLY important:
My winnings, Atari Anthology and a bottle
of Ricky's World Famous Hot Sauce with a limited edition Funspot label.
June 5th - Tournament Day 3
8:22 AM
I wasn't able to
update last night considering I got home at 2:45 in the morning. Lots
happened though.
Billy Mitchell (the perfect Pacman
guy) was not at the tournament this year, but he sent a super secret video
for everyone there to watch. The tape was of his new world record Donkey
Kong score, but we didn't know that at the time. We knew it was just a tape
of his game but didn't know the outcome yet. Well, it turned out this tape
had the first ever Donkey Kong game to go over 1 million points. And to top
that off Billy killed his last two guys on purpose, and here's why. Walter
Day made the announcement right before watching the tape that Billy would
pay anyone $1,000 to break 1 million points on Donkey Kong by the end of the
tournament. Everyone was amazed by that amount of money. But then Walter
continued and said that Billy was going to pay anyone who broke the score on
the tape by the end of the tournament $10,000!!! He's also going to pay
$1,000 to anyone who beats the Q*Bert record by the end of the tournament.
Around 30 or 35 people went to Patrick's for supper. Had a
great time.
Got the world record on Hot Rod.
Won a raffle thing at the end of the night. Got Atari
Anthology for XBox.
Lots of media coverage at the tournament. I guess the
Boston Globe was there for a bit along with other newspapers of course. I
also heard CBS was there and Channel 9 people. I wish I could get some of
the TV stuff taped. Some guy interviewed me for about 2 minutes. I hope I
didn't look too goofy.
Updated the pics by the way!
June 3rd - Tournament Day 2
10:36 PM
Not much excitement
today. Mike Pedro and Zack Hample are continuously breaking each others
world records on Super Breakout. I got my Tiger Road record a lil bit
higher. I almost have the record on Hot Rod. Got 211,000 today, record is
224,000. Must keep working on it! I have a few pictures to put up but I need
sleep before SATs do I will put em up in the morning.
Left school at 11 to
go to the tournament. I can't say if most of the people were there or not
because I'm not sure how many more will show up in the next day or two, but
there were plenty. It was really good to see everyone who I only get to see
once a year. Lots of news crews for papers and I think TV stations too.
Doris Self started playing Q*Bert the second she got there and I'm not sure
how long her game lasted but it was many hours. Walter told her to "Get to
work!" She's 80 and going to be crowned oldest video game champion! I broke
the world record on Tiger Road.....which was mien to begin with anyways. I'm
getting close to the record on Hot Rod, hopefully I can pull it off during
the tournament. I highly doubt I'll get very high in the standings for the
actual tournament.
Overall the first day was pretty
fantastic. I forgot my camera today so I'll definitely bring it tomorow.
June 1st - Best month of the year has begun
8:48 PM
Best month of the year
has finally arrived. So many people have birthdays in June including me!
What else is in June? Let me tell you! End of school, bike week, the classic
game tournament at Funspot and the start of Summer (and by summer I mean the
season not vacation.) Also, the longest day of the year. Yea... I love June.
Ok so anyways. I'll be bring my camera to the tournament and
to bike week in the weirs so expect some pics.
10 days until I'm 17.
The next week is going to be extremely busy for me!
May 31st - It Could be Better...
3:42 PM
Yea well I'm sure you
noticed the nifty thing I made. It's nothing great I know. Originally it was
gonna be a collage with some guitars or something. I think what I'll do
though is change it every month. Like December add some Christmas thing to
it. Or October... Halloween stuffs. November... turkies!
May 30th - Something In Store
7:49 PM
I'm working on
something new and nifty. Hopefully it will be done tomorrow.
But the real news... <3
May 25th - Darkest Hour...
10:56 PM
...is still my
favorite band. They're new CD, Undoing Ruin, is coming out June 28th. On
Friday they're putting 2 mp3's from their new CD on
their site. The mp3's were actually
leaked leaked awhile ago, and I managed to get a hold of them. Sound the
Surrender and With a Thousand Words to Say But One are absolutely amazing
songs. So far they have a more metal/less hardcore sound to them.
That's it for now I guess. Maybe more laterz.
May 19th - A Good Afternoon
10:10
Went to see Star Wars
today with some friends! Which was really cool cause Josh came down from
Maine and John came up from Florida. Geoff and Colby came too... After the
movie we went to Dairy Queen and totally saw a real life pedophile with a
little child...it was so creepy. After mass amounts of your mom jokes we
went to Funspot, went bowling, had some pizza, and kicked arse in Ninja
Turtles. Cowabunga!!! Look at the names ->
Where else are you going to see jesus and your mom bowling together? You're
right! NO WHERE ELSE!
Hey, sorry bout the lack of
updates. Lots of stuff is going on lately. I have been playing guitar mad
crazy amounts! Justin Hayes and I have also started a band, possibly to be
called Obstreperous. So far we are on guitar, Even Benoit on bass and
hopefully Matt McKeen on drums. I hope this goes well. It's kind of been my
dream to be in a band.
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April 1st - Battle of the Bands R0CK3D
11:11 PM
The Battle of the
Bands was a blast! All of the bands, except the first one, were really good.
Two bands really stood out to me though. World Ablaze.. I think they were
called was really good...even though no one else liked them. But Never Say
Never just outright owned like usual. My neck hurts soooo much from
headbanging. I got really dizzy once and almost fell over, I couldn't walk
in a straight line it was so sweet.
My day just
totally rocked just like yesterday. Didn't do much in school except take a
history test...which I think I did really good on. Skated till 4:30 or so
then went home for a quick supper and come back for the show. I guess we
can't skate after school anymore though, some police dude came by when I was
gone and told everyone if he saw them get on a skateboard he would take it.
The show just outright pwned everything ever. Props to everyone who showed
up and rocked out...Brian n Jess, Mike n Anny, Renee, Colby, Eric...a bunch
of other dudes too who I don't feel like listing cause there's too many.
Special props to Geoff for getting kicked out due to moshing and to Henry
for getting kicked out due to jumping up on stage. By the way... mosh pits
rule! I bought NSN hoodie which is like.... uber sweet. The very last band,
the bassist, threw his tie and I caught it, and then later I traded (if they
were a metal band I wouldn't have traded it) for a wickid sweet black n pink
studded belt that one of Jess's friends had. Oh yea! After the show all of
us went to LHoP for some sweet pizzage. Thanks to Jess for supplying most of
the pizza money.
Tonight truly rocked...I just wish one thing had been a
little different. But I guess it can't....?
March 31st - Of rock and hardcoreness
3:31 PM
Today has totally
pwned all other days. I slept in and was really lazy in the morning and
still made it to school on time without forgetting anything. I got to
school, saw my favorite people, did nothing in my classes all day. My team
totally KILLED the other teams in our trivia game that we do to review for
history tests. Usually we do the worst...actually not usually...everytime we
have done the worst. Today we smoked the Mooj and Die-nasty so bad. Rock on
Silver Snakes! Tomorrow is the battle of bands! Can't wait to go, see some
friends and of course listen to some rock. This week has been hardcore rad.
Only working 1 night this weekend too! OMG the pwnage never stops!!! I have
been skating with some dudes everyday. Today was especially sweet cuz Josh
was skitching on my car. That was wickid epic pissa sweet right there. Time
to rock out to my fav tunes while playing my fav game.
Oh and btw... <3
Peace out.
Oh, and something I
totally forgot to put in my update earlier... We got a new 30" widescreen
HDTV and digital cable with a DVR. So we have a bazillion channels,
including G4 the best channel in the whole world. Plus, we can record
anything we want without tapes or DVD's. It just records right to a hard
drive. We can pause and rewind live TV, except if you do that it's not
really live anymore. Well anyways...umm...that pretty much rocks hardcore.
March 30th - Skate or die
5:18 PM
A lot is going on
lately.
I have started skating again! I pretty much
didn't skate at all last summer. I skate after school with a bunch of other
dudes. I even brought my rail today, which I'm glad fits in my wagon, which
I am thinking about putting some better speakers in. I've stayed till about
4:30 which is when girls lacrosse practice gets out, so I give Renee a ride
home.
I've been playin guitar a lot lately too. Doesn't feel
like I'm getting any better at that though. I don't mind, it's fun anyways.
I have barely touched video games in two days!!! O_O
I think I'm going insanse....tonight I think I'll finally play some WoW.
Friday = Battle of the Bands. It's at LHS at 6 PM and it's
$6. You ALL better go cause
Never Say Never is going to be there and they are going to r0ck y0ur s0x
0ff!!!11!one!!1 And don't forget your neck brace cause after a night
of headbanging to them you are going to need one!
Stay metal and rock on!
March 29th - So someone can go to bed.
9:42 PM
I'm updating so Renee
can go to bed because she said she wouldn't until I updated. I'll write some
more later when I actually feel like it.
March 26th - I'm sore
3:38 PM
Yea I'm sore from
skating for only about an hour yesterday. I'm gonna start skating a lot
more. I guess I just realized how much fun it used to be.
Today has been good. Watched the season finales of two of my
favorite shows. Except dad cut off the last 10 minutes of one of
them.........................
Work tonight. I hope it isn't busy. If it's not it'll be a
lot of fun. If it is busy it will just be normal but it should go by fast.
I can't believe people actually read this...
Oh yea and last night I got worried for nothing I guess.
March 26th - Typical
12:41 AM
Yesterday was good.
Went to school, skated for awhile, got to see Renee a lot, went to work.
But then I got back, and I was hoping to talk to her and tell
her how I felt and stuff...but it didn't work like that I guess...
I am just hoping now...
March 23rd - Failure
4:14 PM
That experiment failed
horribly. It didn't even do what it should have. It was kind of lame
anyways. Today was a good day though! I haven't taken any pictures
lately...hmmm....
Oh yea...my confusion is slowly
going away I think...
Oh yea! I don't think I ever posted this, but here is my
world record on
Time Crisis! Keep in mind that is just Stage 1. I gotta keep practicing
2 and 3.
Stuck some of that stuff down there in the archive cause
this page got way longer than it should've.
March 23rd - An Experiment
11:49 PM
I'm trying an
experiment. It's not going to work though, I'm gonna have to find some other
way of doing it. The idea though was to have a little pic that would change
depending on the time of day. I could make it work once but it won't repeat
automatically. At 6 or 7 (I forgot already) that pic on the right there
should change to a sun, then at 6 pm it'll change to a moon again. But I
think after today I'll have to go in and change the date for tomorrow...bleh.
March 23rd - Is Everyone This Lonely?
8:50 PM
I don't know...
March 21st - This Doesn't Deserve A Title
11:15 PM
My computer just
crashed....right as I finished my paper to go along with my project. I was
always bragging to myself that my computer didn't crash once while making
that Eiffel Tower. Because that program uses so much memory and sometimes I
would tell it to cut out some holes or whatever, go eat lunch, come back and
it would just barely finish. But anyways, my computer crashes 5 seconds
after I finish my paper. Just my luck right? Right. Well it turns out Word
auto-saves your work every once in awhile so I just have to type the last
couple sentences again.
Every time I forget my
worries and I'm just like...normal...something happens. He is always at her
house now and I should just get used to it by now but somehow I can't. Every
time I hear that he's at her house it's just...bam! No more good. Something
needs to happen and soon because I can't take this. Either I need to get
over her or... I don't know. I don't want to...but this is just hurting so
much and that's why I want to.
And then there is Renee. If she is still there after all
this crap I will be truly amazed. Seriously, either you've got to be sped,
really stupid or just really crazy in order to put up with me. Monique did
for awhile, I guess she got sick of it finally. I'm not doing it
anymore....seriously because even I am sick of it.
This thing is really long now. And can you believe people
actually read this?! Since August 9th it has gotten 578 people. I should
find a way to do polls on here. Or thingers for comments like all them live
journals have. That would be a clever feat on my part I think, I've never
done anything like that before. I think website design would be a neat thing
to get into as a possible job? I don't know...
Tonight is my ramble night I guess. I have had a lot of
things on my mind lately. Spring is awesome. No more cold. No more wet. I
wake up every morning, walk out my door and hear the birds! It's wonderful.
Don't have to warm my car up anymore. No more slipping around on the roads
either.
Every day that goes by means one day closer to someday
and one day closer to my sanity. Keep those days comin'!
I need something to do to pass the time. Sure video games.
But that isn't enough anymore. I love driving, I would drive more but I
don't feel like wasting money on gas. I love music...which reminds me...my
stereo died. Now I have to buy a new one. My speakers are still good though.
I'll have twice as many speakers soon...righteous!
I have been playin guitar a lot lately. Matt showed me
this thing called tapping. It sounds like this!
That's me playin if you didn't know. Since the day I got my first guitar I
have wanted to just go all out and do crazy solo stuff. Every day I come
closer to achieving that.
April 1st - Battle of the bands at LHS. Going to be very
rad if Never Say Never makes it. They're an awesome band, I've seen them
live.
Seriously though, music rocks. It gets you pumped. It
makes you forget your worries. Just turn it up and rock on! That's what I do
at school and people yell at me! Haha screw them. I'll listen to my music
whether you like it or not.
It was nice to finally write a lot of this stuff down I
guess. Today was long and tedious but in the end well worth it. I feel so
relieved with this project out of the way. Let's see what's next on my list
of things to worry about...Funspot is going to tell me to cut my hair,
reading a stupid English book...do I dare say prom? I have gone back to
disliking it I guess. Well I don't know... there is a .0001% chance that it
will turn out how it would in say...my dreams. But maybe there isn't even
that chance. But it would mean so much so I must wait n see. I don't get it
everyone says that you HAVE to go and then next thing you know they're
saying oh it's JUST a dance. Make up your mind pleeease. To me, it's more.
It's just one of those magical nights you don't forget. I'll remember it
either as dancing with the girl of my dreams all night or... gunning stuff
down in Halo 2. That's always fun. Yes, yes it is. That wasn't sarcasm
either.
Every time I try to end this I think of more
to say. Mr Mathis will be so angry if he knows I didn't read for his class.
I'll just read in study hall before his class since I have no homework to
do. Or I could just sit and listen to some tunes while playin some Metroid.
Tough choice.
That felt good.
Read this if you don't understand what that says, or you could read it
just for laughs because it's pretty funny.
You must
be from the short bus if you are actually still reading this. Get a life! I
should take my own advice.
Ok, when it gets to a
point where I feel like I'm just talking to myself it is time for bed. I'm
gonna go insane within the next 5 minutes if I'm not asleep.
I hope the weather tomorrow is nice because I haven't gone on
a walk in a very long time and I'm looking forward to doing so...
March 21st - Operation History Project: Success
7:21 PM
Yes, it is finally
done. Gaze upon a horrible recreation of the
Eiffel Tower.
March 13th - I Love purty scenery? Yea...
5:59 PM
I've been busy playing
WoW a lot lately because I have nothing better to do with my life. Except
maybe homework...jeez I dunno bout that homework. Where is it going to get
me in life? Just kidding... Well anyways I just found I'm going to
Friendly's for supper! w00t!!!1!!11!1one!!!11! Oh yea I forgot to mention
the reason for this update....I put up about 20 new
screenshots...
March 12th - A Good Day
6:27 PM
Today was pretty good
I guess. I didn't have to go to work because of the snow and I played WoW
all day. And we had an interesting conversation at dinner.
Demetri: Shut up!!!
Me: Mom, tell him to stop saying that.
Mom: Demetri don't say that.
Demetri: But...
Interrupted by Dad: Don't say butt, say but.
Mom: Hun, you're supposed to engage your sons in intelligent conversation...
Us 3 guys laugh for a sec...then...
Mom: OK You guys are on clean up duty, I'm going to play solitaire!
You had to be there for it to be funny I think....
March 9th - Life Sucks, I Got Used To It
7:05 PM
I was sick of everyone
asking me about stuff so I wrote this in a hurry but I think it sums up
stuff well so there ya go.
K people here's the
deal. Renee and I broke up. No one thinks I care about her, but I do...I'm
not THAT inhuman. I care about people. So get it straight. Just because I
broke up with her doesn't mean I don't care. And don't think that life is
all fine and dandy for me now because it's not.
Some
of you know that I e-mail Mr. Mathis a lot and tell him what's going on in
my life. Well if you want to know what I have been thinking lately here's my
latest e-mail to him. Well, at first I just sent him one that said "life
sucks" and he asked me why? This was my response:
Life sucks because I can't have the one thing in the
world I want. Monique, my girlfriend for the past...many years is
just...so awesome. I mean she is everything anyone could want in a
person. She's kind, funny, smart, creative, devoted. She knew me more
than anyone ever has. She knew how to treat me. She stuck by my side
when I needed her. She always let me back when we would break up. I was
so happy with her. But I would always screw things up. I'd always get
some stupid crush on another girl and we'd end up breaking up for a
week. Well, something went terribly wrong with me this time and we broke
up. I ended dating Renee who I really liked and cared about. But...it
just wasn't the same. I still loved Monique. But Monique likes Ben now
and he lieks her too. And it's just...so frustrating. This is the first
time (at least that I know of) that she really likes someone else. She
says she still loves me though etc, but she can't like two people at
once and pushes away her feelings for me. I told her I'd wait forever
for her and that's why she is going with Ben right now because she knows
I'll wait. So now I just feel like her backup. I feel so worthless and
unwanted. I fought so hard to get her back but she likes Ben. She is
goign to the prom with him too. I have nobody to go with. I don't even
want to go if it's not with her so whatever. But I am so alone now. And
everytime I think about her wanting to be with Ben instead of me I just
want to die. All sorts of people at school say she's happy now and I
should just leave her alone. I told her maybe I should and she's just
like do whatever you want and that made me feel worse. She has said a
ton of things that both give me hope and make me feel like crap. Yea
well now I'm alone, waiting for her and I'm depressed. I mean...I will
wait for her, but I never said I'd enjoy waiting. I need to do this for
her because of everything I've ever done to her. I need to make it up to
her because I realize now how she felt. She was so depressed once
because of me. And then I left her. And now...I really need to make it
up to her. I need to show her I really understand now. I just...want to
make everything better and be the happy couple we once were and be
togetehr forever. That's all I want. She is so wonderful...I am nothing
without her. Part of me is a little tiny bit upset though because...all
these times she waited for me to come back. And I guess it took this
time for me to realize how important that was, that she was so devoted
to me. But now suddenly when I want to devote my self to her, she has
finally moved on. In all honesty I deserve it. I will just take it
because I deserve it so bad. I deserve all these feelings of
worthlessness. Eye for an eye right? I am going to go through all the
pain I put her through. And hopefully after it all we will be together.
Pain is a small price to pay for someone so magnificent.
Well there you go. I spilled my guts, now you can all
trample on them. Enjoy.
March 3rd - Updated a Section
12:01 AM
I play an online game
called World of Warcraft, now as WoW for short. I don't feel like explaining
much about it right now so if you want to know just
click here. The reason for this
is because this updated section is devoted to WoW. Right now it just has
screenshots, I'm not even sure if it'll ever have more than that though.
Check it out though, the screenshots are really
something spectacular to look at.